sendmail load average

im newbie in sendmail (try to use a different MTA than qmail), last day i have trouble with my sendmail. the sendmail daemon wont receive and send the message.the log of the sendmail daemon told that

"sendmail[51879]: rejecting connections on daemon MTA: load
average: 14"

oh that so the problem.then ill tried to remove all the mail in queue, but nothing sendmail still say that he rejected.
oke lets try to look the process, wow what is that there is perl scripts with 60% CPU load. so maybe this process who make my sendmail reject everything, ill try to kill the process then the load average become normal then sendmail daemon start his connection again.

"alejate"

Jamas senti en el alma tanto amor
Y nadie mas que tu, me amo
Por ti rei y llore, renaci tambien

Lo que tuve di, por tenerte aqui
Ya se que despedirnos es mejor
Sufriendo pagare mi error
Ya nada sera igual, lo tengo que aceptar
Ya hallar la fuerza en mi para este adios

Alejate, no puedo mas
Ya no hay manera de volver el tiempo atras
Olvidate de mi
Y dejame seguir a solas con mi soledad
Alejate, ya dime adios
Y me resignare a seguir sin tu calor
Y jamas entedere que fue lo que paso
Si nada puedo hacer, alejate

No voy a arrepentirme del ayer
Amando te hise mujer
Por el amor aquel, por serte siempre fiel
Hoy tengo que ser fuerte y aprender

Alejate, no puedo mas
Ya no hay manera de volver el tiempo atras
Olvidate de mi
Y dejame seguir a solas con mi soledad
Alejate, ya dime adios
Y me resignara seguir sin tu calor
Y jamas entedere que fue lo que paso
Si nada puedo hacer, alejate

Alejate, no puedo mas
Ya no hay manera de volver el tiempo atras
Olvidate de mi
Y dejame seguir a solas con mi soledad
Alejate, ya dime adios
Y me resignara seguir sin tu calor
Y jamas entedere que fue lo que paso
Si nada puedo hacer, alejate

"Alejate" by Josh Groban

oh thats song, if you hear the song.it will touch your heart even that you never know the meaning of the lyrics (the lyrics is not in english).

i went to google then type "alejate" in the search bar. hmm at last ill find the lyrics that have been translated in english. and here are the lyrics

I never felt so much love in my soul
And no one loved me more than you did
Because of you I laughed and cried
I was reborn also
All I had, I gave to keep you here
I know that saying goodbye is best
Suffering, I will pay for my mistake
And nothing will be the same
I have to accept it
And find the strength in me for this goodbye

Just walk away
I cannot bear it anymore
There’s no way to go back in time
Forget it and let me go on alone with my solitude

Go away, tell me goodbye
I will resign myself to go on without your warmth
And I will never understand what happened
If there’s nothing I can do
Just walk away

I’m not going to repent for yesterday
Loving you and I know, woman
For that love
For always being faithful
Today I have to be strong and learn

Thanks Josh for making a beutifull song

learn to work

"i work to learn and i learn to work"

this time that words seem good to me, but i dont know will i use that words for the next few years.

things that i do, ill learn it. (but not 100%)
everything that i learn, ill do it. (but not 100%)

:)